gd luck to me.
my mid yr gona be so screwed
and theres a possibility that i wont be able to come to school on mon.
Gd luck to all too! Mug hard....
Why are the stars dimmer tonight?
Jewel at
5:17 pm
yay! I finished watching the show- La Femme Desperado,
女人唔易做Been watching this show for the whole of ths weeek!Heh. theres 22 series in it and its super nice!
Theres this character called xiao Qi,23 yrs old who is in love with a girl ,30 yrs old. Xiao Qi fell in love with that girl when he is only a schoolboy as she was his tution tcher then. Wah then he do ALOT of things just to move that girl lehh...then they r finally married.I think if theres such guy in real life, all the girls will b moved by him.
For example, he tried many ways to know his wife better. In order to experience her mensusuration cramp, he drank wine, eat sour plumes with an empty stomach- just to make his stomachcramp for the whole day. Which is abit silly...but.hahaha quite touching. Then, his wife was kind of octracised by his family for a period of time. In order to experience this kind of stress, he did many things to make ppl dislike him and hate him. Everything he did is juz to enable him to know his wife better.
The way he court his dream girl is alsoo very w0w! He became a physical trainer so that he can protect his girl..`cos when hes young,they seeked shelther under a boat when its raining. However, he got not enough strength to support the boat. So from then on, he decide to train up just for her.
Then hor, his way of marriage proposal also quite unique. About 10 years back, he carved on a stone that he will marry her. Then 10 yrs later he proposed to her three times. The most unique one is when he juz open a can of drink. Take out the metal lid and propose to her. lol! I never ever thought that a metal lid can also be a ring! w0w
The show is juz soo intriguing! Hahaa now i can focus more on my studies liao..hehe that show been a distraction >.<
the centre guy is xiao qi! The most romantic guy i ever seen.Quite handsome also =D
Jewel at
9:37 am
What did you see in that picture? people is like the picture above. u will never know whether they are good or bad ..evil or good..
Jewel at
2:35 pm
I have been thinking alot lately. I find that my life is quite meaningless...I do things not because I enjoy doing things but because I HAVE to do it and also because I do it for others. I realised Im quite a perfectionist in nature..whatever things that I do, I will put in my best and aimed for the best. In primary school during streaming exam, I aimed for EM1 not because I desired to be in it but because thats the best i can attain in primary school. True, I got what i aimed for. My parents were very proud of me and people praised me and said Im clever cos Im from Em1 stream in a very good school. But so what? Im not happy..in fact Im quite stressed and I dont have much friends[im an introvert then].
Then I got posted to Express stream in Amkss. I was disappointed as I aimed for Special stream in a school like Cedar. Yes, my first choice was Cedar followed by Amkss. Many of my classmates got posted to very good school and I was unfortunately one of the last few in class for Psle- I was posted to a neighbourhood school. However, being a perfectionist I aimed for the best during my lower sec days. I got into the top 10 position in level ranking and got either first or second position in class. My parents were proud of me...but m I happy? No! I have no life.. I dont go arcade..I dont watch tv... I dont go shopping...I dont do things that teens like myself will do. In fact, I dont do anything tt i really enjoy except drawing in art lessons.
Then I chose to go to a triple science class 3/1- the only class that offer triple science in my school. It was seen as the best class by many and my fatherr advised me to go to tt class as he said tt i will have more choices when i go to jc. So yea.. I went to triple science class and thats the turning point of my life. Thats the point where I realised if i dont enjoy what Im doing, I will suffer the consequences of it. True enough I suffered. In my whole life, the subject I disliked and sux at is science. From primary school till now, science had been my lousiest subject. But for the sake of getting into the stereotyped 'best class', I chose the triple science combi.So my upper sec days werent very smooth. My science results were terrible and I have never felt so disappointed in myself before.
Later on, I worked sufficiently hard to change my fate. And I got into the school that I aimed for- AJC. The reason why i aim tt school is not because i think its fun but because it got a good reputation and is near my house. If the society hasnt been so pressurising and stereotypical, I could have stayed on at Innova. I liked Innova, I like my frens there, liked the tchers alot, like the school environment. However, many of my frens and my parents` frens looked down on me. Once they heard tt im from innova, they will be like, HUH? INNOVA? Isnt that a 3 yr course school? Isnt it a lousy school? I got nothing to say. I recognised that my parents werent having a good time when they told their frens that im from Innova. So, I went on to AJC and my parents were quite proud of me and many of their frens nodded in approval as Ajc is a good school. But , m I happy?
I really dont know. Whatever decision I made, I did it for the sake of doing it and for making people around me happy. I dont know how to make decision for myself. I really dont know how. Maybe thats the reason why I can never be a leader. I can only be someone at the backstage giving ideas or someone assisting the leader in executing the idea. But I can never be the one making the imprtant decision and the one executing the idea. Im such a failure.. I cant even make any impt decision for myself..Whatever decision tt I made,I did it because of others.
However, 9 days ago, I made an important decision- a decision that is well thought through; a decision that is made not for anyone else but for myself. Through the lessons taught by life, I learnt that whatever decision I made, I must live with it and most importantly be happy with it.Although some people was quite against the decision that I have made and could not understand the reason why i made tt choice, I continued to believe that the decision that i have made was the right one and i hope I will be happy with my decision and will never regret it. I truly hope so.
Jewel at
1:28 pm
